Some women dream about being mothers. I am not one of those women.
Yes, as a young girl I played house and sewed clothing for my dolls, and as a teen I dreamed of being a mother and having someone love me unconditionally. But as an adult, it was never one of my strong desires. I'm not saying that the thought never crossed my mind but my career was always something that interested me more.
The idea of giving up my life and all the freedoms therein to care for a child just didn't appeal to me. I saw becoming a parent as losing myself and who I was. Children were loud, sticky vacuums that sucked up your social life, money, and spare time.
I met my husband and he had different ideas. His eyes lit up when playing with my friend's children. He wanted to make a family and when he told me about his dreams I wanted them to be my dreams too. We decided to give parenthood a shot and BANG! we were pregnant before we even started trying!
So here I am. Pregnant and trying to find a way to keep my sense of self and figure out all this motherhood stuff. Juggling a career and motherhood isn't an easy task but I'm going to try.
I don't have all the answers. I don't really have any of them to be honest. That, however will not stop me from trying to find them. Join me on my journey to motherhood.
Yes, as a young girl I played house and sewed clothing for my dolls, and as a teen I dreamed of being a mother and having someone love me unconditionally. But as an adult, it was never one of my strong desires. I'm not saying that the thought never crossed my mind but my career was always something that interested me more.
The idea of giving up my life and all the freedoms therein to care for a child just didn't appeal to me. I saw becoming a parent as losing myself and who I was. Children were loud, sticky vacuums that sucked up your social life, money, and spare time.
I met my husband and he had different ideas. His eyes lit up when playing with my friend's children. He wanted to make a family and when he told me about his dreams I wanted them to be my dreams too. We decided to give parenthood a shot and BANG! we were pregnant before we even started trying!
So here I am. Pregnant and trying to find a way to keep my sense of self and figure out all this motherhood stuff. Juggling a career and motherhood isn't an easy task but I'm going to try.
I don't have all the answers. I don't really have any of them to be honest. That, however will not stop me from trying to find them. Join me on my journey to motherhood.
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